Vundabar - Oulala

If I had to sum up these last few weeks of college in a single word it would be Vundabar. Yeah its the name of a band, but more importantly, it means "wonderful" in Russian, which I think is very fitting. This semester has been one of the best times of my life. Honestly, I don't think I've ever been happier. It's going to be hard to leave, and I get sad thinking about how sad I'm going to be when I leave hahaha. Life's a bitch. I wish I would've left on a mission before college, or before the second semester. It would have been so much easier to leave. When you're going on a mission, no one wants to get attached to you, because you're not permanent. They know you're going to leave, so why would anyone bother putting in an effort; However I've met such amazing people this semester, and I just want to be around them all the time. I absolutely hate caring about people more than they care about me and I feel like this entire semester has been a whole lot of that. I really need to get back to my life motto of "Whoever cares the least always wins." I think deep deep down I'm a hopeless romantic, which is unfortunate when you're as blunt and abrasive as I am lmao. I really want to skip two years into the future and just be home from the mission, speaking Spanish, and back at Utah State with all my friends. I'm so excited for what's to come, but I'm growing increasingly nervous as I slowly count down the days until I leave pretty much everything I've ever known. 40 DAYS. THAT'S INSANE. I don't want to grow up, and I don't want to have to be a "real" adult. I want to live this life forever. I want to go to my classes in the morning, go to sk80s on Tuesdays, play futsal on Wednesdays, go out to Chick Fil A once a week, and stay out until 3 am a couple nights a week with JT, Thaller, Austin, and Mark watching movies and playing fortnite. I read this quote once on Facebook when I was 13, and it said, "If I like you, consider yourself special because I hate everyone." and I still think that's pretty accurate hahaha. Actually, I tell EVERYONE that I love them, maybe a little too often, but you never know when it could be the last time you'll see someone. So tell the people you care about that you love them and use it liberally. This was supposed to be a post talking about JT, because he wanted to be in one of my blog posts, but I started getting sad about everything that's happening right now so I kinda veered off course a little bit.